And she said, “I trust you in your decisions”. After which, everything else seemed heavier than they were. How can she trust my decisions that made the wrong turn? Or maybe she meant, “I hope things turn out alright”. Maybe it’s not right to hold on to merely what’s real. Maybe this is just not the time for it. Maybe this is but an overview. Not in this time frame, not in the present verse.
And you start making people think, “Is this necessary?” To one who’s ready, it’s always a clear “yes”. but to one who’s not ready, “I don’t know”. And not knowing is just not enough. It’s either this, or that. There’s always a choice that we have to leave. And a choice we have to live.
Misaligned choices will have to be adjusted constantly, and it could be tiring. You say you stay not for happiness, but that because you chose to. It sounds selfless and noble, but not necessarily. You could simply be tiring yourself out without necessity.
Every laughter is real, but so is pain. People long for you in hopes of finding happiness. And maybe the lack of it is just a sign of a choice misplaced.